| Sunday, September 14th, 2003 |
| 11:09 pm |
what a very Jack thing to do...
so i work so hard at being organized- i have a watch even though i hate 'em...but it breaks so i go out to get yet another watch- when i hate the things! i dont want to know what time it- but the new one i get is on military time- so i can't read it (its in some sort of elvish- i can't read it *said in my best elijah voice*- we know the quote)....i mean come on! i work so hard to be organized and i have a watch (i hate them!) that i can't read- sounds to me like a compass that doesn't point north, aye? what a fun Depp filled couple days this will be...i just watched chocolat- in which Depp's character is oddly enough referred to as a pirate (that captain too!). Also i read that Depp says "savvy" in Once upon a time in Mexico.... can't wait. well now that i've updated a buhjillion times...i think i go.... |
| 7:49 pm |
THIS IS GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY EVER!
I cant believe it- first we're going to see johnny depps new movie- once upon a time in mexico- and then we're going to see potc again!!! how cool is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to tell emily how much it means to me- cause i know its not completely your thing- but having friends like you who will do stuff sometimes just cause you care about me is so great! its been a while since im posted how much i love lotrfis- but its definetly overdue....when sara is calling me Jack all the time and thinking about Parley.... gosh i can't tell you guys how much it means to me- you are the best and i love you! I really think i said it well in one of my other posts- its just been so great for me to see that you love me not b/c im the "F" in lotrfis- but b/c im lisa and the "F" and the "J"(jack) are part of that....thanks you guys. now onward to the best day ever! (sorry im listening to the potc soundtrack and that can get you really carried away!) |
| 3:33 pm |
crap...
look at this- i want to talk to him and he's not on.... |
| 1:45 pm |
POTC SNDTRX GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!
rampid girlie screams! im so excited- im listening to it right now and it's wonderful- I LOVE YOU JACK! ooh- it's track two- its the song id sing on the kayak!!!!!! so wonderful............. its at the part when jack makes his grand enterence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! words due it no justice... Current Music: POTC, Savvy? |
| 10:14 am |
dude! who does this sound like...
Jack: He's no one. Aunt's nephew's cousin twice removed on my mother's side. Lovely singing voice. Eunuch. See if jack had been at Bree- things wouldn've gone very differently- i think. |
| 9:47 am |
Hi girlies! (i love saying that- it sounds so stupid!)
anyway so....i dreamt about you know who last night (i've got to whisper because he might be reading this-hehe). But it was a break through for me. see for the last two years i've had an option every couple of weeks for one of two dream scenarios- 1) i'd dream that he would someday pop back into my life and everything would be wonderful...which can be really depressing to dream over and over again. 2)My other option would be that he would suddenly show up and terrorize me...he would usually have naz-guls with him. but last night my dream wasnt either of these! i dreamt that he came to visit me...not unexpectedly, just the person i've been talking to recently- came and visited me...i know it doesnt sound like a big deal to you- but what it means is that im living in the present now- not the past- so woohoo for me! in other news, the latest chapter of the book of lotrfis is making a big splash! Stauffer from Bracken & Stauffer has given the chapter ten a thumbs up...we're still waiting to see what Bracken's review will be.... (im into these trailing off sentences aren't I...?) |
| Saturday, September 13th, 2003 |
| 5:20 pm |
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| 5:13 pm |
Me, Me, and why i am that way....
so i just got done chatting with jesper for hours...gosh this wierd. Man did i play with him though! Gosh im great. I really think my niceness used to get in the way of my interestingness- but i've rectified the problem by not being "so" nice. I mean who cares it all someone can cough up is "that's nice" and "how are you?" why talk to someone like that? i just said what actaully came into my mind- so i guess i was never actaully all that nice. who knew? something i've been meaning to post is a big break through i've had in stuff- all my life i'd gravitate toward stuff- wether it be frodo or jack, it would be something and then i'd just always be looking for the day when someone like that would come into my life and sweep me off my feet, completeing me in every way and wisking me off to a wonderful life... ok so this is how i've been thinking...until now. Cause i realized- why do i lik frodo? because i feel parts of myself are reflected in him. why do i like jack? same reason. And isn't it Jack/Frodo that im waiting for? Then it hit me! I've been waiting for myself! im never going to meet someone i like more, or who just really does it for me more than me! i know this sound egotisical- but I dont care! Im in love, what can i say...and she's perfect.... |
| 4:51 pm |
oh where or where has my little hobbit gone..
oh where or where can she be? with her halfling curls, and her fury toes, oh where oh where can she be? hey sam= if ya want you can call me this weekend- hint hint- cause i miss my gardener-hint hint- aint i subtle? |
| 3:56 pm |
Where are you guys!!!
There's something wrong when i talk to my ex-boyfriend more in a given week then lotrfis......... |
| 11:27 am |
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| Friday, September 12th, 2003 |
| 9:45 pm |
one more thing..
i dont know why but fanfic.net has some issues- so i just wanted to clarify that the chapter is called "the ball" and the title is run together with the first line. also there are indentations where there should be- it does that when i upload it- they're there on my computer- but do your best ;) |
| 9:39 pm |
OH MY!!!!
Dude! i finally got around to editing chapter 10 too! (it was a mess and its long so i've been dreading it)....im so excited! this is definetly my fav to date. Now for chapter 10 i simply insist that you guys like write me an email abou thour reactions to it (as alot happens)...im sorry it's so long, but i wrote it in like one inspired sitting listening to track 9 of the soundtrack of Chocolat which i've entitled "a dance with Jack" (you'll see why this was so appropriate once you read it). Have fun girlies.....and read it soon- IM DYING! |
| 8:19 pm |
Chapter 9 is up.....
i would kinda like to write a little disclaimer here, i'd like the record to show that i wrote this chapter about two weeks before my ex-boyfriend contacted me...and so Frodo's love interest (yes he has one!) that's introduced in this chapter is in no way connected with the recent events of my life (although i must admit...i find it ironic- but then im like that about stuff). So now that i've given stuff away, read and enjoy...but i do want to say that hold on to your butts- cause Chapter 10 (which was also written two weeks ago) is totally cool/crazy! everything goes to heck! which is the stuff writers live for- that turning point in the story when everything starts to unravel and the plot begins to form. Normally i like to jump into the plot right away, but i felt i would try to do it more in the style of tolkien and fart around for a while and then leave the shire...but i've said to much again..... |
| 12:05 pm |
That has to be the worst college student, iv'e ever seen...
So it would seem! man i forgot a paper for a class today - THAT I DID A WEEK IN ADVANCE!!!!! tell me how much that sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well...whatever! today is friday and not a moment too soon- feels like this week was like one big monday that just stretched on and on.... Here's an intersting question- where is sara? i mean i know she's supposedly in Nauvooooooooooooo ( i like that way tha word sounds) but i dont know a thing about what's going on with her- i wonder why that is?- oh wait...i know... ITS CAUSE SHE HASN'T EMAILED ME! Sara i miss you and im going crazy wondering how things are going for you in good ole' Nauvooooooooooooooooooooooooo- please let me know........... PLEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSEEE... ..Frodo hast to know what Sam is doing, SAVVY? |
| Thursday, September 11th, 2003 |
| 4:33 pm |
college, college and MORE college!
i dont usually hold to educational things, but this college stuff ain't so bad -NOT! UGH! tired.... just worked out and read further in my bulgakov. man i want to reach catch-22 so bad! as soon as im done with this book- Yossarian is mine! i hope you guys check out my web page- i think it's so cool... but obviously i would ya know? i really miss sara....she needs to write me....and when she does it needs to be like indepth stuff....not like one or two sentences....cause i miss her ya know? oh yeah i almost forgot- i took my first communal shower today- you know in the gym- it was so cool- cause im like "heck! ususally i look like a pirate- being naked is a whole lot less wierd than that- so bring on the shower/nakedness." it was cool. that's all for now.... ain't that enought!? |
| 2:43 pm |
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| 10:56 am |
at the library...
here i am at the library, doin what i do...updating live journal. i like live journal though (like i said before- it feels like a press conference) and comments feel like me taking questions from the media (hehe). now that that little fantasy is over, im tired...yeah that's pretty much the way i'd charcterize me right now. but so what...oh no im really starting to ramble...im bailing out of this terrible press conference. im sorry but i can't answer any more questions at this time. |
| Wednesday, September 10th, 2003 |
| 8:32 pm |
the call....
so it went well. i was pretty much paralyzed till it happened though...didn't get anything done. but he does seem different. he said that he had a girl do to him what he did to me and that it made him identify with me and see that he had been purely selfish in our relationship. he said he was really sorry for what he did to me and my family. after that we just talked for like an hour. it was...nice. He like Jack which was a plus (i think). he's dressed up like him too- go figure. he says two towers was much better than fotr (didn't really like the books- hey someone can only change so much), he says he feels like a hippy now b/c he believes in non-violence and is anti- anything to do with government. yeah we talked about politics(which was a sore spot in our relationship- he was always such an arrogant prick about it) but it went really well this time- mostly i guess b/c he thinks the same way i do know- and also cause im not as attached to his opinions now- you know? i mean what do i care what he thinks about something? but it was fun to talk to someone who i knew so well but hadn't talked to in two years (it will have been exactly two years in the first week of october). it really felt like the glorious summer right before we dated when we would talk for hours on the phone...man.... well i survived. He was really happy- he said he couldn't imagine it going better than it did and i guess it couldn't of. he asked if i wanted to talk again and i said sure- why not? and so if we see each other on im- we'll talk again i guess. i dont know it was just a really wierd experience/day and it's brought up all kind of emotions and thoughts. i mean i really loved/love him and to be talking to him again is weird, especailly knowning he's dated someone else (we were each of our's first serious relationships). I hope you can tell from the tidbits of our conversation that i mentioned that i covered all the important things: lotr, potc etc. I just kind feel like this day is a large boulder which had been previously held in place at the top a mountain by a tiny little pebble and that pebble was just removed. i think this is the start of something- either a friendship, closure or a relationship- mark my words. not to mention about once every two weeks i dream that he comes back from sweden and has totally changed and we get back together (but who wouldn't dream that? so i dont put too much salt in it) but another thing i think is strange is that way back when, when are relationship was good and i'd wonder if we'd stay together i always had this mental picture of us breaking up and then finding each other again in college and we'd be ready to be with eachother for real...i dont know. but there ya go- i knew you guys would want to know about what happened. i told him about you guys too (meaning sara and emily). when i talked about you i felt so proud, cause you guys are so wonderful. Current Mood:  contemplativeCurrent Music: crush |
| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003 |
| 1:42 pm |
wow- i really like livejournal don't i?
I just prefer it to email though- cause it's not to any one person but rather a general statement. i feel like it's "the official statement" type deal- you know like at a press conference. anyway, that said, i just got a really good book. it's called "a country doctor's notebook", and its by Mikhail Bulgakov. i was so proud i figured out how to spell that off the top of my head today at the library. he's one of my favorite authors.... i think one of the things i really like about liking him is that i can say i like russian literature.. (a comment that is very bulgakov). I just like the way he writes. this book is less satirical then The Master and Margerita, but it still has his attitude, un attitude that im starting to find hidden behind everything i love. of course i first came to recognize this attitude in Jack...this witty, cunning, daft flair... and now im seeing it reflected back in everything else i've ever loved. for instance Gambit from the x-men had parts of it, so did Yossarian (GOD I LOVE HIM!- i wanted to check out catch-22 again, but it was out :( ) the attitude is summed up in the song "its my life" which attracted me to bonjovi, Frodo has it...it my story...(just you wait and see). Ibut anyway so i here i am at college getting ready for zoology and then im off to the gym ( on three and a half hours of sleep matey!) but im trying to get back my health....so..whatever i dont care. i think alittle vigourous exercise my really help me out today. then it's off to emily's - how fun? i feel like a little kid going home on the bus with a friend..... |
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